Shouts in the dark

Just because I'm not supposed to 
shout it out,
I shout it out in the dark.
But I'd let everyone know
I love you,
if I could.
Everyone.
Even him.

I don't want to ban you from my heart.
I don't really want you out of my head.
You've made it quite cosy there, and
are clinging to stay, 
or is my head just locking you in?

You've thrown me the key
a million times over.
And I drop it time and time again.

Take my hand
and turn it with me.
Run free
or run alongside me.

But you were never mine to keep.
You will always be a wild animal.
And you will not tolerate me by your side
much longer.

Please tell me how I
can forget what we shared
and live again
instead of wait.
For you, for me,
for us to happen,
or never happen.