Fast like you

I wish I were fast like you.
Fast in forgetting.
Fast in moving on.
Fast in falling in love with
random people
and letting go when they're not interested.

I wish I could just drop you,
like you drop me, 
in a blink of an eye.
In the blink of some other girl's eye.
And forget you,
forget what we had,
forget what you probably felt
at one point.
Forget my longing.

I wish I could.
But I'm slow.
My heart sticks.
You stick.
I wish I could just forget you
and move on.

Just like you.

Just like I do forget that
you move on after seeing one pretty face.
I forget that whenever I see you,
hear from you,
think of you.
And I think about you all the time.

Fuck you.

I wish you didn't exist,
I wish we'd never met.
Moving on would be so much easier.
And so would my life.